The prompt for today is a question: What do you need to forgive yourself for?
It’s honestly a question that brought me to tears. I don’t think much of how much stuff I hold myself responsible for. Everything that goes wrong in my life, I tend to blame it on myself. Even the most uncontrollable incidences are things I blame myself for. Panic attack? Well, I should’ve known better than to go out today. Sad for no reason? I should be grateful that I woke up. It’s how I was raised. I’m supposed to take responsibility, no excuses allowed. But, I was never taught what was my responsibility and what was just misfortune. Even now this is reinforced. There’s a lot that I need to forgive myself for, but in short: I want to forgive myself for not being perfect. I want to forgive myself for falling short of expectations. I forgive myself for being unable to be a “normal” person.
In addition to this, I embrace who I am. I promise to better myself, but to try to stop hurting myself.