Day 6 of 31 Days of Self Love

The prompt for today is a question: What do you need to forgive yourself for?

It’s honestly a question that brought me to tears. I don’t think much of how much stuff I hold myself responsible for. Everything that goes wrong in my life, I tend to blame it on myself. Even the most uncontrollable incidences are things I blame myself for. Panic attack? Well, I should’ve known better than to go out today. Sad for no reason? I should be grateful that I woke up. It’s how I was raised. I’m supposed to take responsibility, no excuses allowed. But, I was never taught what was my responsibility and what was just misfortune. Even now this is reinforced. There’s a lot that I need to forgive myself for, but in short: I want to forgive myself for not being perfect. I want to forgive myself for falling short of expectations. I forgive myself for being unable to be a “normal” person.

In addition to this, I embrace who I am. I promise to better myself, but to try to stop hurting myself.

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  1. “I want to forgive myself for not being perfect. I want to forgive myself for falling short of expectations. I forgive myself for being unable to be a ‘normal’ person. In addition to this, I embrace who I am. I promise to better myself, but to try to stop hurting myself.”
    *sends hugs and SOLIDARIDAD to Medee and cries along with ya for tis the same goes with moi!
    *thanks you for catching all those heavy thoughts and putting em in your blog-basket above and for allowing comrades to share in your pain/s!

    “What do you need to forgive yourself for?”
    …will… will also try to forgive moiself for not being able to go out there and do organizing! ‘will forgive moiself for being depressed and afraid and unsure all the time! ‘will forgive moiself for being awkward! ‘will forgive moiself for not doing enuf!

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